Aspirations

Aspiration

I don’t want a life touched by tragedy
In fact, all I aspire to
Is to be occasionally happy
But that isn’t what I got
My bones seem to be wrought
With trials beyond belief
Beyond necessity
It’s what
I am built for, it seems
Constitution of a brick
A will of steel, rigid
And unbending, but not
Hopelessness, even though
I am guilty of it
I always climb back up that
Slippery slope
All I ever wanted was to be happy
But all I’ve been given
Is endless hope

At this point, I really don’t know
what I’m doing, or
if what I am doing, is right
All I can do though, is keep working
Hope for you
And hope for a better life

©CM
24.12.2014

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7 thoughts on “Aspirations

  1. Perhaps you, like me, are designed so that nothing can stop you, so you may as well do as I do and assault the dread castle of depression! Attack it with flesh and blood unyielding! Offer a heart and when those jaws hungry and slavering bite and try to tear they find something they cannot get free of fast enough and flee with broken teeth.

    If it’s gonna hurt regardless, Ima take those fuckers down with me! That’s how I think, and then I find myself remaining, and finding a battle joy, and then radiant joy and those dark ramparts diminished due to my choice to not yield, never say die, never say quit…

    Ima hang the ivories into death’s ass and never let go, cause that fucker so much pain and consternation before my run here is thru…and what torments it the most is my laughter! Joy.

    Pure.
    Fucking.
    Joy.

    And if at first it is tinged with desire for vengeance? So much the better…a lil hot sauce for the dish while I grow and mature!!

    Give em HEAVEN Cookie…there is hell enough already.

    I know you can. I know you will. You are undefeatable, just as I am…that’s why they attack so much, because only we can beat us.

    Much love,
    Charissa

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  2. PS: I literally mean what I said…you are one of the more amazing people I have run onto in 5 1/2 decades milling around in this place called Life

    I genuinely admire you, and see who you are, thru the tear streaks and the hurt, thru the things you have sought solace in and respite from.

    You rock, girl, and you are a hero to me

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  3. globalunison says:

    I dont know how you can express eveything with so much emotions; it makes ne want to cry with you but your pain will make you a better person for the best that Nature has chosen for you.

    Your writings leaves a very deep impact!! Keep letting it out; you are doing a great job.

    Blessings,
    -Naima

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  4. Virginia says:

    Aspire to something higher.. xo ❤ 🙂

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  6. Madsies says:

    Yes. Keep the hope. ❤

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